On Dasher, On Dancer… Well, maybe not. I was just reading a verse in Romans about “hope”, and felt the urge to blog about it.
On a side note, I think I do much better with this blogging thing when I am more “random” about it. When I try to write about topics such as singleness and pain, I get bored…I am like my good friend, “Deep thoughts and …. Squirrel.” (A blog – the name inspired by the movie Up.)
This is what Paul says, “I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit” (Romans 15:13).
My blog posts recently have not been filled with hope. I am obviously having a hard time of it, lately.
I was just reminded that it is hard to plan your future when you have an illness. Our culture promotes independence. They tell us that he is a “self-made-man”. To Christians, we believe that only God made himself. For a man to believe he is “self-made” would be making himself equal to God.
This belief poses a serious problem. Note what happened in the Garden of Eden.
Finances, success and all those earthly things can disappear in an instant. If we place our hope in those things, we will suffer from insecurity, becoming greedy and self-centred. Kind of sounds like our culture, doesn’t it?
And, how much is enough? I heard a story about a man, who when the ‘ship was sinking’ stole a ridiculous amount of money from his company. Something in the neighborhood of over 300 million. (I am going by memory so details are sketchy, and I confess I am too lazy to try and “google” it for accuracy.)
The reporters made him sound like the worst man on the planet, but I thought, when we start to count up how much we need, we begin to wonder if it will be enough, and so we keep adding more and more until the number is astronomically ridiculous. I don’t think this man is any different than me. In fact, I would have to factor in how much I would need for Bobbi Brown cosmetics and Davids Tea. That would be a lot more, People!
I remember having a break-through moment when I was at work. I was in so much pain, I leaned against the counter in the kitchen and said, “Okay, God whatever you want from me, I will do. I give up. You win.”
But, as I try to let God have His way with my future, I still find myself holding on to my own dreams and desires. I don’t want to let go. I hear the pastors saying, “You are not trusting in God.” I know, I know!
I don’t trust that He knows what is best for me. It doesn’t help that I have been in fairly constant pain for nearly 3 months. It casts a shadow on the scripture I quoted.
Does God really know what is best for me?
Then I read Paul’s words, and I find comfort. It is one of the verses I come to when I am in need. “I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.”
God is my “source” of hope! God will fill me with “joy and peace” but this will only happen when I “trust in him”. And, it is only when I “trust in him” that I will “overflow with confident hope”, and only “through the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Through Zechariah 4:6, God reminds us that nothing is done but through his Spirit: “Then he said to me, “This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of hosts.”
Notice that God reminds us twice that He is the one speaking to us.
I think it’s a daily choice, choosing to trust God. I am going to take on the challenge! I am going to try my darndest to wake up tomorrow morning, and not gripe and complain to God first thing as I usually do, but instead say, “I trust you.”
Blessings on you this day and throughout the coming week!