I love C.S. Lewis. This is no surprise to those who have been following my blog for some time.
He’s so humble! He knows his strengths and he knows his weaknesses or limitations.
I look at C.S. Lewis’ life (obviously from an outsider point of view) and marvel. Here was an atheist academic turned Christian.
Biography.com says that Lewis was, “Born on November 29, 1898, in Belfast Ireland, C.S. Lewis went on to teach at Oxford University and became a renowned apologist writer, using logic and philosophy to support the tenets of his Christian faith.”
He used, “philosophy and logic to support his Christian faith.”
Being a bit of a feeler, emotional kind of gal, I wonder how I could “support [my] Christian faith”.
Lewis used what he had available to him. His brain. This is problematic for me on many levels. The obvious reason is that I have not the genius to go to Oxford, let alone teach at Oxford.
I do believe God has a sense of humor and all things are possible, but Oxford would be stretching it. (I laugh as I think, “Even God couldn’t get me into Oxford.”)
But, that’s kind of beside the point. God has gifted each of us, in our own unique way. Lewis had his portion – God had placed him in England in the 1920’s and in an academic setting. I believe Lewis accomplished what God had set out for him. I would argue that when Lewis got to heaven, He was greeted by Jesus, saying, “Well done my good and faithful servant” (Matthew 25:21).
Those are the words we Christians want to hear.
So, the question we have to ask ourselves is: What is my portion?
Before we ask that question, I think we have to do some deep soul searching, figuring out who we are, and how God has made us. And, then the tricky part – Joyful acceptance of who God has made us. It is from this point, we can move confidently forward.
I am emotional. If I don’t cry (or at least get teary-eyed) at least once during a church service, there’s a problem. It means I have not connected with the Spirit, with God, with the Son.
That’s just who I am. I can tell you, I spent my twenties denying myself the right to cry. I came back to God at the age of thirty and have not stopped crying since! (That makes me laugh too!!)
Seriously, I went to counseling and she gave me the freedom to cry, to show my feelings and emotions.
For an off the Myers-Briggs-charts’ “feeler” woman, I need to “feel”. That is who I am.
The definition of the “Feeler” type is:
“I believe I can make the best decisions by weighing what people care about and the points-of-view of persons involved in a situation. I am concerned with values and what is the best for the people involved. I like to do whatever will establish or maintain harmony. In my relationships, I appear caring, warm, and tactful.
The following statements generally apply to me:
- I have a people or communications orientation.
- I am concerned with harmony and nervous when it is missing.
- I look for what is important to others and express concern for others.
- I make decisions with my heart and want to be compassionate.
- I believe being tactful is more important than telling the “cold” truth.
- Sometimes I miss seeing or communicating the “hard truth” of situations.
- I am sometimes experienced by others as too idealistic, mushy, or indirect.”
Yep, mushy, weepy, emotional. All of the above!
In a culture where logic and reason seem to be valued above all else, I seem to be at a disadvantage.
The C.S. Lewis’ of the world get to use their logic and reason, but those of us who are “feelers”, we have to use our hearts.
We cannot “win the race” by trying to be like the Lewis’ (1 Corinthians 9:24). I am preaching to myself here!
I think the world needs us “Feelers”.
I look at modern houses, that represent “logic and reason”, sleek, contemporary, stainless steel, white walls…cold.
We feelers’ homes evoke wood-burning fireplaces, mom’s apple pie, cozy interiors and a relaxed atmosphere – peace, calm, tranquility. Warmth…
Sounds good, doesn’t it?
I will share with you some advice my mom gave me as I was growing up. She simply said, “Be yourself.”
I used to say to myself, ‘Well that’s great advice, but how can I “be myself” when I don’t know who “myself” is?’
Thankfully, I have finally begun to see “who myself is.” ‘Twas good advice after all, Mom! 🙂
Let’s have the courage to be all who God created us to be and SHINE!
(Myers & Briggs definition of “Feeler” taken from http://www.myersbriggs.org/my-mbti-personality-type/mbti-basics/thinking-or-feeling.htm)